Patience is A Virtue

Hi Blog,

I miss writing here, right now I don't have much time to gather my thoughts. I have so much to say but perhaps I'll get back to you.

Why I placed this picture??? I feel I need patience right now, I'm getting anxious of what my future brings...more on it soonest...

Until next posting,

XOXO

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Gullibility...is it a crime?

Hi Peeps....

I'm back again, its been "ages" since I wrote here. How I am? Let's say that I'm quite emotionally exhausted that I'm feeling absolutely...nuthin'....it's like a baby crying its lungs out until there are no more tears to cry and energy to keep up the ruckus, or maybe someone who has been whipped so hard and so long that the pain of the wounds on ones skin grows numb. I think this is the body and spirits mechanism to shutdown in order to survive....yeah... I think this is it.

Why the title?? I must admit I am such a person. I have even placed in my description that I always believe in the goodness of everyone, despite the fact of being the cause of pain, over and over again. Hahaha... When I was in a relationship a few years back, I was a sort of masochist since my other half inflicted the same kind of pain over and over again yet I always took him back over the years...Martyr? yeah... I think so.

Nahhh...this is about relationships but of a different kind. I have been told by my mentor that when will I ever learn that there are people who just aren't mature enough that they cannot be trusted. And right now, its hitting me straight between my eyes...and I have had enough. Yes, forgiveness is there... but I can no longer tolerate having to think of repairing the relationship again. I was so gullible to believe that things may be as before or relationships can be repaired so that there will be no ill feelings and no going back to the past "frictions". Sadly, I feel that the bridges are burning... at least for me.

I am on a verge of making a mind-blowing and life changing decision within this month that may surprise a lot of people but not those who are very close to me and who are aware of the "HELL" that I've been going through all these years. These very dear ones to my heart have agonized with me and unfortunately are helpless since I should be the one to make the decision and own up to it.

Gullibility...is it a crime? No, but under MY CIRCUMSTANCES, I am pronounces GUILTY...by myself... and it is about time for me to change my situation.

Until the next installment...

XOXO

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Sense of accomplishment.....Conclusion of FY10 BBC

Another chapter has concluded....finally. The FY10 BPO Basketball conference has been a great adventure for me, my first major activitiy in the BPO Basketball program since I joined the team in September 2009. Meeting all the players from the different 29 teams as I attend almost all their games, some new acquaintances ... others being old friends and catching up with latest happenings in their life...it's so refreshing.

Despite my heaving a sigh of relief that all our hard work has paid off ( Kudos to the BBC Management Commitee!), I can't help feel that I shall miss the frequent wednesdays and saturdays basketball excitement...the almost sleep deprived days that I got...my stomach turning into knots as I watch my favorite teams battling out with each other and jocking for position for the conference finals and eliminations...

I know I definitely have lessons learned regarding basketball and life, as any highly disciplined sport can give someone if they want to.... team work, communication, respect for opponents, team mates and superiors among other things.

One thing that I can take away from this experience is that sincere and all out cooperation in any activity brings out great results, a lesson not lost on me as I go back to the regular routine of regular working schedules starting today.

Thanks to Coach Jopet and Coach Charles, to Assistant Coach Zsa, The my co-team managers Andie, Corky, Al, Marci, Alma and Tet...to all the players (Accenture Knights, ex-Accenture Knights and all those who love the sport enough to sacrifice their free time for BBC), to the fans and supporters and to all the Leads and Managers who supported their associates in joining the BPO Community initiative...hats of to the Managers team who not only supported their players but became players in the concluding BBC ALL STARS VS the MANAGERS exhibition game last April 24, 2010.

To me...another chapter has closed...what will happen to that book entitled "My Life" in the succeeding chapters? Let's wait and see... ^_^

XOXO

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Punto Miguel with Project H

Thanks to my Unit Lead, Patrick Ortanez, I was able to join Project H, one of the Middle Market Projects in their annual team building at Punto Miguel. Bonding was at its peak, with games, and activities aside from the food galore and drinks overflowing.

Thanks too to Pearl Tavanlar and Pearly Co Yu for also being very accommodating and allowing a "salingkit" to join their outing...

Whew, I'm tired but I will talk about this on the next blog..I have some much to share about my pleasant experience with the Project H team and another guest, HR rep Tetet De Leon

Zzzz muna me

XOXO

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Easter Week just blew by...

Whew! what a week! I thought I could be able to blog my thoughts daily... alas the elements were against me...my internet went kaput and I was exhausted the last 4 days since easter. Anyway, i could say it was a challenging week, thanks to my boss who allowed me to take the April 9 holiday...now I'm preparing to go to Punto Miguel at Batangas later at 9AM.

Sleep? Naah, dunno I'm too excited to sleep... so looking forward to seeing the beach again with a new set of colleagues and friends from Project H. Can't say much here right now although I was overwhelmed both in a good and a bad way. This I can say, the consequential events to come in my life which started this easter monday will slowly unfold as I look back and analyze the events as they come.

Me to myself....try to sleep...Zzzzzz

XOXO

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"He is not here, HE is RISEN as HE said"

These are the words of the angel of the Lord to Mary Magdalene and the other faithful women who followed Jesus even to the borrowed tomb where they laid him after His crucifixion. Such words of hope that penetrated their mind and their hearts where once there was despair...

The Resurrection is indeed the cornerstone of the Christian Faith- all denominations included. Without this central even in Christ's life, our faith and actions because of this faith is useless. For me, there is no hope in following HIS Words if the promise of rising with HIM to Eternal life..."where He will wipe every tear...death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning or crying or pain....".

For all who believe in Christ, this is a life line that we all hold on to, as we go through the daily grind of ups and downs.

As for me, I do continue to hope for a better future for me and mine. Despite me living on a day to day basis not knowing what the future bring, I am grateful for the blessing I have.... A solid family where I can always rely on for support, encouragement and love... true friends whom I don't need to pretend what I am not. One questions that I often ask time and time again, will I truly be happy and content? Unfortunately this question may remain unanswered in my lifetime.

I do feel some void within my being that needs to be filled, but I am filled with hope that He will always be beside me to be with me, despite the despair and sorrow that I often feel during by depression bouts. Quoting some lines of the song "The Journey" by Lea Salonga..."What a journey it has been and the end is not in sight, but the stars are out tonight and they're out to guide my way.... I can see a better day...I won't let the darkness in, what a journey it has been."

As the Angels stood silent....

Angels.... I've always had such an awe and warm feeling about them. To be honest, they sometimes border from childhood stories to surreal fantasy. It was just a few years ago when I seriously delved into literature and sacred writings that I realized that they are REAL and they have been in the background for thousands of years serving THE MASTER.

As powerful as they are as God has created them to be, they give their strength in love to God and to us, mankind. That's the key word... SERVE in LOVE... now that is huge...

In Judaism/Old testament, Angels are named "Ma'lakh" or messengers, they have appeared from Abraham to Moses, to Daniel and in the Gospels to Zachariah, Joseph and Mary....and I would think also to the three wise men (the MAGI) showing them the way to the where they can find the Christ Child. These are dedicated servant of God, doing HIS will to the letter and serving the LORD with Love...

I could just imagine as they serve the Lord Jesus throughout his earthly walk for 33 years, aiding him during his public ministry, just to stand by watching HIM being laughed at..then scourged...then spat at ... then finally seeing HIM crucified on the CROSS by being mocked. These powerful beings of light unable to do anything to aid their MASTER but since they know that this extreme of loving sacrifices has to be done, they stand by...silent...but adoring HIM.

I love this picture that I posted, An angel poised to do God's will... his face bowed in front of HIS presence adoring him. The angels has made a great example to us, their little brothers and sisters. For me it's so hard to follow their example, knowing how sometimes stubborn I can be.... I'll still continue to write about angels but for now, just let me give a short introduction about them as this is day is called SABADO de Gloria where the angels stand silent until their duty to open the tomb of the LORD as HE rises from the dead...

XOXO

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