At last, I can be able to write freely on what is major change that is about to unfold in my life. Thinking of an image that will befit my emotional status is a phoenix rising from the ashes, from my old life I will renew my fire and passion of work ethic in the new role I am embracing. Looking back, I have no regrets of what has transpired throughout my years at work. Lesson are always learned from all the highest highs and the lowest disappointments. I have always been emotionally attached to what role I do and am passionate about the work and the people under my wing and who I have met in each nuances of my previous roles. They say I am onion skinned, it may be true, because I give my all to my work and my people. I cannot deny my humanity and do get hurt and feel betrayed when those whom I care about and defend with all my being turn on you, let you down and leave you hanging dry. It's the worst feeling, more than vinegar and salt on an open wound.Yes, I may be gullible and easily trusting to those whom I deal with, because I believe in the goodness of everyone. Unfortunately, I almost always get short changed or end up holding the end of the rope. What can be really a bummer are those whom you've learned to trust and expose your true self, only to learn that they are the ones who tell on you. What comes to my mind as I reflect on this one not so pleasant incident in my career is what Alexander the Great's mother Olympias would say..."People are like snakes, they turn on the one of feeds them"
What I just realized now is that all of these challenges would make me stronger, making me ready for the next step.
As I "die" to my old self and old life, to "resurrect" to a new life and renewed passion...the dying phoenix then rising from the ashes being reborn comes to mind. I know I'm moving out of my comfort zone for the past three years, yet I embrace the change...I am ready...Bring it on!
Thank you to those who have been there throughout these years, most of all those who really knew me and yet understood me. Never doubting my potential and believing in my capability in achieving greater things. For hearing me rant and rave, weep and cry, listen to my croaking voice half screaming and choking in anger and pain...to my screams of delight and happiness and nodding in approval as you view my now relaxed and serene face, reflective of the peace and anticipation of my new life to come....
I grab that grace of this change with gusto, thanking God for this opportunity. This is just the beginning, People...The Phoenix now rises from it's own ashes....
XOXO
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